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Balcony Blues (2 of 10)

note: the original fiction series continues!

I saw a very attractive Asian girl today at my bookstore – the East Village one – and I regret not having approached her while she flipped through the latest issue of ID Magazine. She wore faded and slightly torn jeans with a white t-shirt and a white Adidas warm-up jacket with red stripes. She also wore a gray-colored beret over her ponytail, which I thought was very cute. She must’ve been in her early twenties, either a college student or just recently graduated.

As a shrewd businessman, I usually avoid checking out my customers, but occasionally, I’ll give in to my vanity and open dialogue with a stranger by mentioning that I am the owner of the store. The targets of this egotistical exercise are usually pretty young women who tend to browse through art, design, or literary publications. I once approached a girl who was reading Evelyn Waugh’s Vile Bodies and asked if she had tried Brideshead Revisited. We ended up dating for a few weeks, and we might’ve had something serious if I hadn’t attended a conference for independent bookstore owners in San Francisco and met a foxy 26-year old who was trying to launch an online shop for rare first edition books. I stayed in San Francisco for five more days and had frequent (and amazing) sex followed by thoughtful conversations about rare collectibles. I haven’t talked to either of them since, and I doubt that anything more could’ve developed from trying.

I read this fiction piece by Jonathan Franzen in the New Yorker called “Breakup Stories,” which is an interesting take on the various ways that couples might part – a mix of infidelities, miscommunication, and angst that contribute to separation and divorces. Trying to get my creative juices flowing, I started writing a series of scenarios about how couples get together called “How They Met.” Nothing too original, but it’s been fun exploring the possibilities. A dog-walker who ends up dating his client, a wealthy Wall Street banker; a photo store clerk falling for a photographer with every new roll she drops off; a married man who spots a beauty half his age in Union Square and posts a Missed Connections entry on Craigslist only to have it answered, leading to a full-blown extra-marital affair and eventually, a second marriage; a hip bookstore owner – wink – who hosts a touring bestseller author and wins her heart over a cup of coffee after the Q&A session. Well, it was really just for a night, but in this piece, they get married. And so on. I felt like I couldn’t stop, but I got tired and decided to have a beer.

Which I’ve just about finished. Sam Adams goes down smooth in the summer. Time for forties noir on Turner Movies Classics!

A Game of Numbers

Reading Malcolm Gladwell’s review in the New Yorker about “The Wages of Wins,” a look at how the value of a basketball player can be determined with a complex statistical formula rather than gut-instincts scouting, I couldn’t help but to reminisce the good old days of the Hoching Basketball Association – a local basketball league in Edison, NJ that I founded with my friends in 2000 and ran until 2004.

Like the book’s complicated stat that determines the number of wins a player has contributed to his team, our league was very serious about the HBA Point system. The HBAP was a weighted average of various statistics which took into account a player’s contributions on offense as well as on defense. It even measured the efficiency in his ability to score (FG %). The HBAP was always a great indicator of who the impact players were in our league and our aggregate HBAP stats for teams never failed to correspond the HBAP leader with the best record.

Gladwell’s article made me think hard about how it is that people, across various professions, can be so overrated based on the tendency of others to focus and glorify certain figures over others. The greatness of a pastor based on the size of his congregation, the effectiveness of a managing director based on his P&L, the legitimacy of a president based on his — oh wait, this one has surpassed statistical rationale. But then there’s the concept of “clutch,” where you’re not really that great all the time but you somehow give off the sense of “stepping it up” when “things count the most.” A Reggie Jackson in October, a Michael Jordan in the playoffs, a Joe Montana in the fourth quarter — sure they all had great career stats, but it was because of their clutch performances that we still revere them. Does the analogy carry through to life outside the sports arena? I’m sure we’d all like to think so from time to time, but how much of this is media-induced myth (our nonstop comparisons to the sports heroes) and how much of it is a self-awareness of our everyday mediocrity with occasional attempts to surpass the routine?

If only there was a statistic to measure the value – nay, the meaning – of life.

Balcony Blues (1 of 10)

note: new serial fiction from yours truly

On a moderate night like this, I like to walk out onto my balcony to enjoy a cold beer and a cigarette. It’s actually not much of a balcony as it is a slab of concrete slapped onto the side of this aging gray-colored apartment complex. I pay $2300 a month for my studio, which these days, isn’t so bad for New York, especially when you have a subway stop only half a block away. I like to call myself a writer since I spend more than half of my time in front of my typewriter, which I bought at an antique shop for $400 a couple of years ago. Supposedly some famous journalist had used it while reporting for the Sunday Evening Post. I’ve actually had a couple of articles published in my neighborhood paper – the free ones that often compete with Gay City and Village Voice for attention on street corners. One article was about commemorating the fifth anniversary of 9/11 and what living in New York has been like since that day. I received a few letters from kind readers thanking me for the piece. Another article was a restaurant review of a newly opened Thai joint a few blocks from my apartment. The shrimp pad thai was delicious and the staff was very friendly. I gave it two out of three stars.

When I’m not writing, or trying to write, I’m usually stopping by at the two bookstores that I own in the city. Yep, I’m a small business owner, and a successful one at that. My bookstores, you see, aren’t your average book-off-the-shelves kind of store. I’ve turned my store into a sort of reading salon, where seating and lighting are plentiful and you can pay $3 for strong coffee that we make from organic Colombian coffee beans. Book sales are average, but we make a very nice margin on the pastries and beverages. Then again, we’re not much different from your local bookstore – we invite authors to come and sign books and answer questions, we give tote bags to customers who spend over $50 on books, and we offer gift cards that come in five different designs. Of course, I do have a few restrictions – no children’s books, no books by authors that have been on the New York Times Bestseller list for more than five weeks, and no self-help books. But okay, enough about my stores – they’re hip and cool and a haven for both seasoned and budding intellectuals.

Anyway, before I finish smoking this cigarette, one thought I wanted to share that came across my mind today was about this one girl I used to date in high school. Her name was Yuri and she was a cute Japanese girl with these distinct bangs that covered her forehead. One thing she always did was to plan out every single hour of her day the previous night and the amazing thing was that she actually executed her plans more often than not. Of course, with my teenage horniness at its peak, I did my best to derail her efforts, but eventually she would even find a way to schedule in our intimate moments as if it was just one more thing on the checklist. Spontaneity was not her thing. I never thought much of it then – just an annoying habit which was quickly forgotten when she removed her clothes, but today, as I was walking through Washington Square, I suddenly thought of her and wondered if it was because she was a child of divorce. Perhaps the instability of her childhood and adolesence, at least from a family perspective, made her want to create for herself an environment that was well under control and very predictable. And thinking about it today, I sort of felt bad for her, seeing that I was from a stable family background and spoiled to the bone by my mother and grandma, who fed and cleaned up after me until the day I left for college. But I’m sure she’s out there somewhere now, perhaps together with a lover who’ll give her the opportunity to provide a stable and happy family for her kids. Gosh, which does remind me of the time we had to go to the clinic, but that’s another story for another time.

I’m gonna go back inside and watch CNN now.