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a note on ishiguro’s the unconsoled

i finally finished reading Kazuo Ishiguro’s The Unconsoled on Monday – some five weeks after i first started it – and i must say, while the experience was at times trying and even exhausting, i don’t regret having picked up the book in the first place.

i was re-reading Louis Menand‘s review (March 2005) of Ishiguro’s latest book, Never Let Me Go (it was more of an article on the writing style of Ishiguro), and Menand mentions The Unconsoled in passing:

“…the strangeness in Ishiguro’s most imaginative novel, “The Unconsoled,” is ingeniously evoked—by means of literal-minded accounts of things that don’t quite add up—and teasing out the hidden story is the main pleasure of the book. In “The Unconsoled,” the story is never fully sorted out; at the end, we remain in the hall of mirrors.”

in my reading, i was often irritated with dialogues that seemed more like block monologues that went on for pages without any breaks or even paragraph indentations. most of these moments came when various characters expressed their personal greivances or struggles with a detailed and often repetitve account of their life stories. it was frustrating to read about such moments one after another especially when i was clamoring to find out what the point of the entire story was about. a clear, definitive point never seems to be made, and the novel ends in a rather unresolved and abrupt manner.

in retrospect, however, the pleasure of the book is very much in what is hidden behind the tedious dialogue and unceasing attention to seemingly useless details. although you learn a great deal about the mannerisms and likes and dislikes of the protagonist – a world-renowned pianist named Ryder – it is unclear what he seeks to accomplish in visiting a Central European town, where he meets all sorts of characters ranging from the respectable to the pathetic to even the straight-up annoying.

as british as he is, ishiguro seems to mock artistic pretentiousness throughout the novel, never really letting the reader in on the “crisis” that troubles the members of the community but not sparing us the details of their preoccupation and their anxieties concerning an upcoming event that would “decide the fate” of the city. this combination of vagueness and specificity makes the reader care and not care at the same time. by the end, the reader can’t help but to feel annoyance and disgust at these characters who all seem to possess an air of self-importance, whether it is in defense of some personal decision made long ago or their sense of artistic sophistication.

but ishiguro’s point isn’t that these are terrible human beings; it is that human beings, like it or not, are almost always like these characters. and in reading something so literal, often to the point of mundane, ishiguro shows a reflection of human interaction stripped of its romance and drama. the reflection is one that portrays triviality, pettiness, and a preoccupation with the self that makes any attempts at idealism seem pretentious and superficial at best. it is a dark, decidedly post-modern view of human affairs, but it is one that doesn’t jump out at you. you have to really look to find it.

adding a little drama to my life

many things happened this weekend. Melanie finally left for taiwan on saturday to start her fulbright program. she’ll be back in a year. it was unreal to embrace her for the last time before getting on my NJ Transit ride back home and unreal again as we exchanged goodbyes on the phone just moments after she heard the announcement calling passengers to board the plane. the last meal we shared, in a restaurant called Wildflower, she told me that the stuff they put along with her avocado sandwich was called alfalfa. i’ve had it before, and i think i’ll put it in my sandwiches when i pack lunch for work. hope the humidity there isn’t too unbearable!

i saw Harry for the first time in a long while. he is currently working at a consulting firm near Times Square, very close to the Lehman office where I will be working after training. we played tennis at the oak tree courts. i told him beforehand that my game had improved while he told me that he was sick and out of shape. our match was competitve in the beginning, and for a time we were taking turns winning games. but i told Harry in my cocky manner that he would fold under pressure, and he did just that. he gave up big leads and allowed me to squeeze by when we faced deuces, mostly on unforced errors. i did have a few moments when i felt confident about my serve, but i mostly relied on Harry’s mistakes and his unwillingness to tire himself out by chasing some of my well-placed balls. our 2-hour match (we played best out of three sets, which I took 6-4, 6-2) reminded me of the months after our freshman year of college, when we would be gung-ho about playing tennis and play at least twice a week, sometimes in the mornings. nowadays, a few hours of tennis can be the difference between having exercised during the week and not having done anything at all. oh man, i ought to hit the gym.

later in the evening, my mom eagerly put on a later episode of a korean drama series that our family has been watching lately. the translated title is: “My Name is Samsoon” and the easiest way to explain the series is to say that it is like a Korean Bridget Jones. but the only parallel i see is that the protagonist is chubby and adored by guys who look more effeminate than her. otherwise, she is a vulgar, loud, and annoying character who has supposedly won the hearts of korean viewers. my mom was very good about explaining all the idioms and more difficult words that i didn’t understand, and i found the experience very enjoyable. it not only helped me to refresh my korean-listening skills, but gave me a few clues about the culture there as well. i love how it seems like at every street corner, there is some food cart that also serves soju. i heard it was like two dollars there for a bottle. damn.

my attention was turned to one of the female characters in the story. i later found out that her real name was Jung Ryeo Won, a former Korean pop music star turned actress. she is very slender and has a pretty face, and my mom kept making comments about how pretty she was. what my mom liked best was that the girl seemed to lack the unnatural plastic look that many korean actresses have as a result of multiple surgeries to enhance their look. Jung Ryeo Won had supposedly lived abroad in Australia, so my mom was even more convinced that the actress possessed natural beauty. soon, because mama knows best, i found myself fancying the actress and asked my mom if she would like me to bring home a girl that was as pretty. my mom just laughed at the question and hardly entertained a possibility. “well, such a girl is very pretty,” she said, as she did a little jog in place for exercise. i should note that in the drama, Jung Ryeo Won’s character, Hye-Jin, is a stomach cancer survivor whose doctor is this half-Korean, half-British guy named Henry (an American-born model named Daniel Henney in real life). my mom’s only problem with Jung Ryeo Won was that she is too skinny.

the story line of the drama series is hardly unique, but i guess having the protagonist be a heavy-set and assertive woman is a new thing for korean drama. i’m not so sure i should call it a drama; most elements make it seem like a comedy series, such as the multiple instances when the characters sit on the toilet and talk about the various options when out of toilet paper and finished with pooping. i am not really a fan of korean drama series because they are time-consuming and often very cliche, but this is one that i would recommend because it is easy to follow and bolder than some of the other series i have watched before. i found a message board with various links, and you can even watch some episodes off the internet. sorry, no subtitles. check it out at koreanfilm.org.

i went to the driving range with Andy on Sunday afternoon. the last time i went – i think the day after New Year’s with my dad, Wally, and his girlfriend Meredith – i had a terrible time because i could barely hit the balls and my hand hurt terribly. this time, i patiently took tips from Andy, who has a way of being the most encouraging and helpful instructor, and eventually found myself making some clean connections with the ball. while many of my swings ended up with balls veering off to the far right, i pleased myself with a few shots that went straight and around the 150 yard mark. i never knew what the golf club numbers signified, but i learned that the lower the number, the farther the distance. while i doubt i will become as interested in golf as to drop a week’s paycheck into golfing equipment (as Andy had done), i surely would like to see if i can improve my technique and learn more about the game. there is something very artful about a sport that requires careful command of various reflexes and proper positioning.

after finishing our bucket of golf balls, Andy and I went to New Brunswick in search of a place to eat. we didn’t find too much on George Street although driving by Soho on George reminded me of that precocious date with Sara way back in high school when I nervously ordered wine using my fake ID and also of the joint-dinner with Warren’s family after graduation. Andy and I decided to eat at a burrito place a few blocks away from the Grease Trucks. i ordered a grilled chicken taco while he ordered avocado quesadillas. we sat in the backyard terrace, which was nicely covered in shade and offered us a cool, quiet place to eat. as usualy, i enjoyed a pleasant conversation with Andy, this time mostly about technology, business, and the desire to become an entrepreneur. we also tossed around ideas for an upcoming film project we plan to complete before the end of August.

i came back to new york around seven, and i realize i should have long been sleeping (it’s almost 4am now). Jay Mung came by around ten, and we updated each other on the state of our lives. i really do hope he finds a job soon – he is one of the most likeable and admirable people i know, and an employer will surely benefit from having such a person around. last week, i came across some stories about our Lonely Man Club that I had written during my junior year. Mung left the club to date Kayle later that year and they have been together ever since. i sometimes do miss the days of the LMC, when we used to sit around and browse photos of girls on dating sites or discuss the latest Craigslist posting – all while sitting at a table in Butler library trying to scope out chicks. okay, fine. we did look at some photos today also, but strictly for reference purposes. Mung had been looking for friends in his area (Newark, NJ) and found a girl who seemed to be near him. he wrote to her on platonic terms, but was nearly shocked when he saw her name. it was Kaye Lee, which sounds exactly like “Kayle.” Mung is one of the funniest people i know. one time, when we went camping, we were setting up our fishing poles and Mung said – “For reel?” i couldn’t stop laughing but Kayle didn’t find it funny at all.

well, another week of work. or excel training, that is. and yet, life is quite do-able.

daily doses

note: in an attempt to be more informational and more in-tune with the real world, i’ve decided to start a category called “link out” to collect posts that include links to other sites as well as tech-related ideas and musings. hopefully this will allow me to update more frequently, draw more visitors, and increase the chances for me to make some dough on Google’s Adsense. yes, a man needs to eat, and hopefully Google will be good for at least a few meals. it already paid a month’s rent with a nice return on my investment of three shares one summer ago.

each day, i do a routine check of select websites and blogs to keep myself informed. aside from the staple NY Times and ESPN (and The New Yorker every other day), here are some of my favorite sites:

Kottke.org – some guy named Jason Kottke posts interesting and cool links throughout the day, daily. the internet is a vast place and it’s nice to have someone serve as a guide.

The Gothamist – started up by two Columbia College alums, The Gothamist is THE premier site for New York lovers. you can read about the latest MTA screw-ups, gem restaurant finds, indie music concerts, and humorous spins on everything New York.

Craigslist – sell stuff, buy stuff, meet people (well, at least try), and just see what kind of funky/weird people are out there by reading the posts. this place totally blows away eBay. too bad SAFs are always on the prowl for SWMs.

Signal vs. Noise – this site by 37Signals, a very talented design/usability firm, provides great insight into the latest technologies and best practices in running small businesses. it’s often been a source of inspiration for me whenever i’m feeling like a lazy bum on my way to corporate enslavement.

Eater – i came upon this last week and it’s quickly become one of my favorite sites. you can find reviews of new restaurants and also find news and tips about various cool spots. they also announce closings, so you can get a sense of how the New York restaurant world is doing and pick some new destinations.

Uncrate.com – this is a relatively new site for “guys who love stuff.” stuff includes clothes, cars, gadgets, furniture, and anything else a nice disposable income can buy. i enjoy the site not because it gives me any ideas of what to buy (most things are ridiculously expensive) but to see what the trends are in the world of material acquisitions. today they had a posting for a Napoleon Dynamite pen that sounds up to seven awesome lines from the movie. gosh.

i’m still looking to find some decent literary blogs and maybe a blog on cultural criticism. i’ve tried political blogs, but find them flat and repetitive at times. i think in general, blogs have done a great deal to change the landscape of the Internet, giving more people access to publish his or her thoughts for the public domain. at the same time, blogs contribute to the decrease in our attention spans as we speed-browse through dozens of sites each day, looking to pick up tidbits of information to amuse us. then again, who wants to stare at a blog reading a five-page single-spaced entry?